Today has been a messy, doubt-filled day. I feel like giving up. I feel tired. I’m weary and I’m emotional. I am worn out and I am struggling to see God’s plan or understand the goodness this cancer can bring. I am overwhelmed.
I know these are thoughts sown by the devil himself and in that, I reject these thoughts. But it doesn’t stop my flesh from experiencing them. It also doesn’t make it any easier.
Sunday, I had my first seizure. I’m still unsure if it was a seizure though the doctor says yes, but the symptoms point towards that. What I experienced that night felt a lot like a night terror/sleep paralysis, too. What I do know is that in the middle of the night, my heart rate shot up and I felt completely paralyzed.
What does it mean to “be still?” When I think of it in the way I define the English words, it means to stop moving, pause, hold. But as I read further into this verse, I learned that the Hebrew word used in this verse literally translates to “let go” or “cease striving.”
Cancer sucks. Those around me know my strong, independent will. They know I’m a fighter, and I’ll stand at cancer’s door, ready to take on the world. There’s another side to me, too. I’m a mom. I’m a wife. I’m a sister. I’m a daughter. And I’m scared.
2020 has given me so much to think about. This time, confined at home, has sought to teach me things about myself. Being away from church has been difficult. I have not honored the time to watch services online, but I have found ways to stay plugged into Scripture. I have craved hearing about God during this time and found people I love listening to and podcasts I love plugging into.
So, it’s Christmas. And every amazing Christmas song is playing. My husband and I usually go to the Shane & Shane and Phil Wickham concert every year but this year, opted to watch it online due to COVID-19. I’ve been listening to the song Face of God by Phil Wickham and O Come, O Come […]
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