The side effects of cancer…

When I started this blog, I thought about a name that would convey my day to day life. Marriage, kids, and just my day to day speed of 90 mph to nothing and stopping at nothing to slow down. I wanted a way to acknowledge through words that I was happy, I am married, and that despite those two, life can be overwhelming. That despite happiness, a great spouse, kids, a house, a good job, that life can still be a LOT for us to deal with. When I wrote it, I never thought that one day, my overwhelmed would be cancer. I never thought about the definition of that word and the importance that one day it would mean to this blog. Through the time here, it has seen lots of fun posts, but it has seen lots of serious ones, too. Parenting, marriage, jobs, sad events, good events, diets (YUCK), medical issues, and more. I’ve got more drafts in my folders than I know what to do with and sometimes, my inner filter kicks in and says, “Nope, don’t post that one.”

Then, I have those days where Jesus pokes at me and says, “Yep, post that one today.” THOSE are the days I really dislike posting and I LOVE to argue with Him. Today, I guess, is one of those days.

What do we tell our kids?

Raising kids is hard. There are days that I’ve wondered why we decided to have kids. When I look at the world around me and all the tragedy and hatred and pure evil, I wonder why we waited so long, why I was born when I was, why we raised our kids in the US and not in some remote fishing village off the Arctic Sea, or why we aren’t living in some country where the worst we have to worry about is the bears or the lions. Some days, I’d rather face the threat of the pack of a lions than to face the demons that walk this earth…

Mission Work – Bringing Jesus to the World

Whether you believe you are going to a country where Christianity Is strictly prohibited or whether you are going to a country where Christians are known, but maybe the numbers aren’t where they need to be to carry God’s word, there is a whole spectrum of views and opinions in the middle. You don’t have to go far to do mission work, either.

When you wonder what God is up to…

I don’t even know where to turn my attention. It seems everywhere I look, something is broken. Wars in countries, floods, cancer. Israel is shooting missiles everywhere – everyone is shooting missiles at it. America is arrogant in her power. We are being washed away with floods. People are making ridiculous decisions and then the Lord is using others to bring HIS MESSAGE to the world.

How Prayer and Listening Shape Our Decisions

It’s about a guy who is stuck on his roof in a floor and prays to God for help. A couple of different ways come by to help him – he declines them all, saying basically, “No, I’m good. God is going to help.” End of the story, he dies. He gets to Heaven and asks God, “Why didn’t you save me?”

Yearbooks: Capturing the Memories

I had to take Silas to lessons and offered to fill up the gas cans while I was out. I don’t know why I did. Moment of no brain, I guess. I can’t ever open those stupid gas cans. Went to fill them up, got so freaking MAD at how cold it was and I couldn’t feel my fingers that I put the gas cans back up, drove to Taco Bell and warmed up, got back out in the parking lot, unscrewed 3 of the 4 cans out of sheer anger and determination to not fail and then got even more blistered that I knew that meant I had to fill them up again.

Talk to Jesus: Spiritual Resolutions for the New Year

Mine is more simple: Just talk to Jesus more – and be more willing to put the words on paper He wants me to share. Whatever that means – and however hard they are. Not everything needs to be shock and awe. It doesn’t need a cliffhanger or a climax. I’m not writing a murder mystery or telling a Sherlock story with some insane plot twist. I’m just talking to Jesus – and I’ll share that along the way.

Kelp Forests and God’s plans

My heart has been in being “busy.” How having little time to “think” has kept me from focusing on the fact that my cancer is very real and that there are some really deep-rooted fears there. So in an effort to mask all my feelings of worthlessness, I have made myself so busy that I give myself no time to think about these things and don’t have to deal with the thoughts.

When the devil attacks

In every moment, the devil has been present. Trying to muddy the waters and take away from the incredible work the team is doing. The lives that are being touched. The Gospel that is being shared to convert unbelievers into believers. To prevent those souls from knowing the love of

Can you hear Me?

But y’all, God is faithful.  He is persistent.  He is good.  And He keeps His promises to pursue me because He loves me.